Saturday, February 23, 2008
There are good times and there are bad times...but sooner or later,i think the bad ones would out number the good ones. I dont really know what to think anymore. Sometimes i just wanna hold, sometimes i wanna strangle. and im trying really hard not to argue or quarrel but on her part...her tone is driving me to the edge everytime we have a dispute abt something. No idea why...but yeah..i have been trying on my part.
Anyway,im rather sad that i placed her above every single thing in my life and i dont get the same treatment. Infact, sometimes i feel that im lower than her friends. I seem to feel that she rushes down for her friends to meet them more than she does to meet me. cause she never fails to make me wait for her...
i dont know why...i wonder if im too nice or what.Continue later on...gtg
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Friday, February 08, 2008
Last night we had a long talk...it was a really long talk. Basicaly..i told her what i felt but she doesnt understadn how i feel and vice versa..but...oh wells...i guess i have to let things be and do nothing. if that is what she wish for...then yeah,so be it.
saying that she is envious of her friend who has a christian bf who could talk abt god at anytme...and saying that her friend's convo with her bf is totally diff from ours. It hurts kinda bad..knowing that she is comparing and prefer her friends convo from mine. i mean..shouldnt our convo be our convo...not to be compared with others? i dont know what to think anymore...but if it would make her happier to find a christian bf who can make her dream come true of her guy following her to church every sunday, then im fine with it. anything to make her happy.
and im sorry that i always make her cry and sad...it seems as though i dont make her happy anymore. It is always arguments and stuff like that. Dont know what is happening to us. most probably it is my fault making a fuss abt the whole touching thing...
i dont know..am i asking too much or...am i just insensetive. most probably...insensetive la.but fine...i wont touch her anymore...not even her stomach.
im really feeling down these few days and troubled. but i dont wish to tell her fully cause it is rather useless. she might not understand what my thinking is...and so will i. its hard...so more likely i have to compromise.
i love you pl.
you have just been reef-ined.
Thursday, February 07, 2008
Im blogging on a chinese new year! cause im super bored...didnt know why im bored till this extent of blogging again.haha. i realized that i have not blogged in almost a year...plus minus a few months.
anyway,at that one night...i was rather frustrated and sad as those words fell on me like a 2 ton rock. it has been compiling for the past week and finally it all came out.You all might not know what i am talking abt, but, its alright, cause i i not tell anyone...i cant even tell my gf.so...tat kinda sucks.
but anyway...what she wish for...i will try to give, dont know if i can hold it up but yeah. Im kinda deprived... It sucks la. but seriously...it is boring me out. I dont know how to put it to words, but there is no reason for me to get pissed or depressed abt...but there is also a perfect reason for me to get depressed.so...it is kinda weird la. oh wells.
Should i be mean or...just be nice. I think im too nice at times till she takes advantage without knowing...just like dawn ow did. its really like deja vu at times. wonder how long it would last...not the deja vu but something else.
you have just been reef-ined.
Monday, June 25, 2007
Well...i havent not been blogging in a long long time. now im in class and im bored so...i managed to wake up my fingers to type on my blog.haha.
but anyway,things are going quite well...although there might be some things that didnt go my way. i dont know why these stuff are happening to me(pris..you know what im talknig abt). but look that the bright side,i love her. i dont know,maybe i should give her more time or give her time to get used to the new life that she is having but i am willing to wait...for the moment.haha,no lar. but i seem to be falling deeper into the hole and dont know if i can get out of it in time in order not to hurt myself next time in the future.
and i really do hope prissy would be happy i too know that things are not exactly going the way she wants it to. but dont worry dear girl,ill be behind you all the way,just be sure not to fart!haha,ok..not funny. we should hang out soon!!!havent seen you in a while. :)
ok..now i feel like shitting.
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Thursday, June 07, 2007
Everything is great so far! i got what i wanted...pris knows abt it and some other good friends of mine.hahaha. she was quite shocked abt it when the whole canoing team from my batch knew abt it(polo side at least). haha,this sat i would have to go down to acjc to watch a concert with her and with her friend or something...but anyway, she isnt exactly that initiative but it would take time for her to learn. spent alot of time with her and loved every minute of it.
but other than that! im meeting prissy later! haha,gonna disturb her...poke her fats or something.Muahahaha...watch out for your fats prissy...poking boy is coming!
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Saturday, June 02, 2007
Hey...i think i might be liking her already. but anyway,hope things go on like this all the time..smooth with not much bumps. i think that she is really nice and all...but she does not initiate much at all which is kinda irritating.
I MISSED PRISSY!hahaa,havent seen her in a long while...miss poking fun at her. but anwyay,will be meeting her on thursday!!! hope that she and tim are doing fine.
you have just been reef-ined.
Thursday, May 31, 2007
so...havent been blogging for a long time. i have been alright so far...everything has been going to plan,just hop it continues that way and does not stop. im now in school on a freaking holiday suppose to do my project but here i am blogging. anyway,me and pl are doing fine, no problems so far...hope it stays that way.
my mum asked me not to play with other ppl's feelings.HAHA,so funny can...alright lar
peace out.
you have just been reef-ined.
